Sinful,

Flying to Japan this Sunday and I'm definitely looking forward to it. It's just gonna be a whole new experience for me because I've never gone to Japan before, so hopefully, it will be mind-blowing. I'm trying my best to keep up with blogging but most of the time i'll just be plain lazy to blog or just simply, I've nothing to blog about. 

I would say that life's been really good for me ever since promos ended. I've a group of awesome PW group mates who are willing to sacrifice the time for op practices etc without complaints. Really glad to have them as my group members despite the not-so-awesome impression right from the start but they really proved me wrong. I realise i complain a lot at the start of the year but now, I don't think there's anything negative to complain about. They truly are the best group members I've ever had. May the odds be ever in our favour and hopefully our group, including everyone in our class are able to get an A for PW. I sure hope our efforts are rewarded.

As PW finishes, it means I have to face J2's boring life soon. To be honest, I'm not sure whether I'm up for it. Yes I may have promoted but it doesn't mean anything much to me if I don't continue putting in efforts to my studies. I feel that as I grow older, I tend to procrastinate even more. Gosh, maybe I can keep up with such competitive society that I've came up a way to avoid the whole situation. Sighhh.

I really hope I can get back the bubbly self from secondary school. The responsibilities on me are wearing me thin and I may or may not be on the verge of breaking down. It also caused me more hostile towards people compared to the past when I can easily make friends. Or maybe it's just not meant to be.....

I really need to withdraw from this whole situation before I hurt myself again. Knowing that this would never happen yet I'm still playing with fire again and again. I wonder if there's a remedy that can keep me away or let this whole feelings disappear because I don't want to experience the whole darn thing again. Shall start by avoiding? Yeah I should and I must.... I can't bring myself to be happy, because the next moment something terrible will happen. Haixxxx. Guess the moment of happiness has passed, what's left is the worst of everything.

Wouldn't it be better to live in a world of fantasy where the best can happen on you and not just on something you read?

To my dearest Ng Yan Ting,

(Ms very-old-woman-who's-173cm-tall-freak Ng Yan Ting)

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This post is specially dedicated for my cutest cutie pie, Ng Yan Ting. Let me first start with our history before I even go on further. So, we were never in the same class except for mother tongue lessons throughout our whole secondary school life. We only got really close when we were secondary 4 and I can vividly recall the only 10 people in HMT class which was kind of separated to into two halves. There's me, you, Siewhui, Yaohong and Jon Yeo, the slackers who always never do homework and the rest being the hardworking ones (who actually do all the HMT homework that chen laoshi assigned us). 

Time passes quickly and we took our O level at the end of year 2011. Subsequently, we took back our results at the start of the year. I can't remember clearly when we started to get really really close. It's just somehow the 4 of us, me, you, Kelvin and Franklin just started to hang out a lot for awhile. Maybe it's the part we went to NUS's open house, where we promised each other to do well and get into NUS's Medicine. Thereafter, I think we whatsapp-ed each other almost everyday (except the fact I'm always lazy to reply messages hahahaha. I do that to everyone not only to you okay!!!) and also meet up occasionally. I don't owe you any cold stone already okay! 

Now let me get on with my main reason for dedicating this post to you. I know that things haven't been exactly that great for you recently. I know that you're on the verge of breaking down of that person. This is the second time I've seen you getting hurt by someone this year. I knew that you were already terribly upset because of the first incident and you took some time, finally getting back on track and forgetting about all those unhappy incidents. Now, something similar happens again, making you feel that way again.

Honestly speaking, I don't like seeing you getting hurt by anyone because I do treat you as a very good friend of mine. Similarly, when I was upset or anything, I can confide to you whatever that happened and you always give me useful comments to help me cool down especially when I'm feeling very very angry at times. Hahaha. 

(Your Voldemort lookalike picture, making you Voldemort's Sister)

I know that trying to comfort you through whatsapp is limited and just superficial because I'm not physically there. Besides, I've not seen you before my promos even started. (I'm looking forward to meet you after my oral presentation ends.) Despite all these, I still want you to know that I'm always here for you if you need me. Whatever you choose, I hope that you make the right decision and don't regret it. Life may be tough but it will get better in time to come. Don't let the person affect you again, you have other friends that are there for you in your school, they trust you too you see and not her so don't ever feel that you're alone or everyone is pretentious. No. There are still people like me, your friends, your family there for you. Don't doubt us or yourself. Please take very good care of yourself, I believe that actions speak louder that words. In time to come, people will understand being sincere and real is definitely better than physical appearance and whatever lies the person said. Love you!! <3

"We'll be Friends Forever, won't we, Pooh?' asked Piglet.

Even longer,' Pooh answered.” 
― A.A. Milne, Winnie-the-Pooh