Flying to Japan this Sunday and I'm definitely looking forward to it. It's just gonna be a whole new experience for me because I've never gone to Japan before, so hopefully, it will be mind-blowing. I'm trying my best to keep up with blogging but most of the time i'll just be plain lazy to blog or just simply, I've nothing to blog about.
I would say that life's been really good for me ever since promos ended. I've a group of awesome PW group mates who are willing to sacrifice the time for op practices etc without complaints. Really glad to have them as my group members despite the not-so-awesome impression right from the start but they really proved me wrong. I realise i complain a lot at the start of the year but now, I don't think there's anything negative to complain about. They truly are the best group members I've ever had. May the odds be ever in our favour and hopefully our group, including everyone in our class are able to get an A for PW. I sure hope our efforts are rewarded.
As PW finishes, it means I have to face J2's boring life soon. To be honest, I'm not sure whether I'm up for it. Yes I may have promoted but it doesn't mean anything much to me if I don't continue putting in efforts to my studies. I feel that as I grow older, I tend to procrastinate even more. Gosh, maybe I can keep up with such competitive society that I've came up a way to avoid the whole situation. Sighhh.
I really hope I can get back the bubbly self from secondary school. The responsibilities on me are wearing me thin and I may or may not be on the verge of breaking down. It also caused me more hostile towards people compared to the past when I can easily make friends. Or maybe it's just not meant to be.....
I really need to withdraw from this whole situation before I hurt myself again. Knowing that this would never happen yet I'm still playing with fire again and again. I wonder if there's a remedy that can keep me away or let this whole feelings disappear because I don't want to experience the whole darn thing again. Shall start by avoiding? Yeah I should and I must.... I can't bring myself to be happy, because the next moment something terrible will happen. Haixxxx. Guess the moment of happiness has passed, what's left is the worst of everything.
Wouldn't it be better to live in a world of fantasy where the best can happen on you and not just on something you read?
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